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well i dont like the word retire so i don't want to use it. i said after sochi that my 2 consecutive ogms would be the start and i truly feel that was the case. i was able to do many things including win 4cc old. i continued until beijing, but rn i think that i don't need to
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participate in competitions. in order to chase my ideal shape of fs, i realized i don't need to be in competitions, and i might only be able to do certain things outside of comps
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q: how do you feel about inspiring many ppl and why do you think you were able to do so?
a: [missed the beginning] i think i'm very lucky to be supported and watched in this way. i feel that i have to work harder and i am able to think more deeply about how to say things and
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i am able to stand here and speak in this way bc of those ppl who supported me, so i was able to continue until now. but i am only an athlete, so from now on as i continue to perform and skate, ppl will see me from different perspectives. but i'm not an idol or actor
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q: ???
a: i want to continue always challenging something. it's hard for me to draw the line between being a competing athlete and pro athlete, and i don't mean for things to change drastically. from now on as an athlete, i want to keep doing my best and of course land the 4a
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i strongly feel that i want to share [the 4a] with everyone and land it in front of ppl
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q: are you thinking of doing shows or anything specific?
a: i'm thinking about things and starting to talk with others about it. i am trying to put multiple things into motion, but as for naming specifics, i'm still unsure of things or if they will even happen
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so i will refrain from speaking specifically. but i was limited by competitions until now, and i want to create something that ppl who've never gone to see live skating will want to see too, something that will satisfy ppl who have cheered me on until now
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q: when did you make this decision + what was the biggest factor?
a: there were many places i thought about stopping as a competing athlete and becoming a pro athlete, and starting towards a new step. not in a negative meaning like 'retiring' ..... this is the start from
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here on out. about when i thought about becoming a pro skater, i thought about it every comp. after pyeongchang, every competition, i thought about many things, like if i had chosen the wrong path or wasn't trying hard enough. in the end, i made the final decision after beijing
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beijing olys ended and i came home, and as i was resting and recovering from my ankle energy when i couldn't skate, i thought i want to become better and stronger and made the decision. when i was at faoi, that was the last time i skated as an amateur skater
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q: about always challenging
a: i think it's bc i'm an athlete. i've never been satisfied with my current situation and always thought i want to improve. whether it's jumps or interpretation of the music, it's always been fun to try to improve and that's why i can continue skating
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for me, skating equals living, and as i continue living there are things that don't go well or ppl say things about, but these hold true for skating as well. and that's what fs is to me, so it's not bc i set records or jumped difficult jumps
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q: ??
a: when i just started skating and looked up to skaters from that era, it was impressive just to have 2 quads. now everyone is jumping many quads, but in that era it was amazing to have multiple quads or 1 quad + 3a. the fs that i love is from that era that i grew up in
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not bc you could win if you did 3 quads or many 3a. i want to keep giving performances that make ppl want to keep watching me. from now on, the rules may keep changing as they do every year, and things may happen, but i want to chase my ideal form fs that's like from that era
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for a figure skater, they would stop competing at around this age and stop improviing, ppl say this is around 23 for us. but i won pc at that age and even now i feel that i was able to improve a lot with my jumps. so after that i was able to understand and now feel that im
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at my best. i don't know if i'll be skating until i'm 40, but i'm excited for ppl to see that some things are still possible at a certain age. there are different ways to work hard and do your best, and i want to improve while discoving them
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new question
for me, yuzuru hanyu is a very heavy existence. even being here and speaking here about my decision, i'm very nervous and i was shaking. i want to be perfect and continue being perfect and be a better yuzuru hanyu. i will keep feeling a lot of pressure, but there are
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many ppl who will keep supportin gme. during pc when i was feeling a bit crushed and said things about my efforts not being rewarded, ppl still cheered me on. so i always feel that 'yuzuru hanyu' is a heavy existence
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but i want to keep performing. there have been times when i've felt empty inside and cried without a reason and been unable to stomach food. but as a human being, i learned to trust many ppl, and there have been times i didn't know who to trust, but i think this is something that
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everyone feels. and from now on, i want to treasure myself the way many ppl have taken care of me until now. for ppl who have said that there is meaning in supporting me and found inspiration, i'd like to say thank you [missed a good amount bc of emoshuns]
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q: anything you want to say to your fans
a: it's hard to say it in one sentence, but it's bc ppl supported me that i am speaking here now and have skated until now and want to keep skating
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i don't think there's anything special about me. bc of the fact that there are so many ppl supporting me, i was able to come here. even if there were only 10 ppl supporting me, i'd feel full from just that. [missed some stuff] i want to keep giving performances that are
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as ppl expect from me. so my true feelings are "please look forward to what's coming and please keep watching". i don't htink it's right to say "thank you" here bc it's not the end. i will keep going and doing my best, so i will be counting on you from now on as well
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tldr 3 mottos? he wants to live by are 1. continue challenging 2. live beautifully as a human being 3. to not neglect his studies (keep learning)
fanyu since sochi translating JP→EN and attending live events for fun sometimes